Ms. SiZef0uR is n0w a DipLoMa GrAduAte


3 years ago I questioned myself to accept the offer given to me. One: I was afraid to start a new chapter; new journey, new environment. Two: The course given was not the course I wanted. Three: I am not sure if I am even ready.

But my Mama is my number ONE supporter & thanks to her I am where I stand today. She have been & always be my pillar of strength. I am glad I have the chance to prove to Mama & put a smile on both Mama & Papa. Back then I know how disappointed the both of you when I entered ITE, I promised myself to excel in ITE but I never thought I can go this far. Thanks to your never ending love, care & prayer. My greatest appreciation for the confidence you had in me.



Thank You bestieRad for the prayer & encouragement



To you, Mr. Hairi... who have always been there from ITE right to the end of my Poly education. Thank you so much for believing in me. Every tears & happiness we shared. Every UPs & DOWNs that we've been through. Every moment that you never failed to be there when I was in my stress state. Every problems that I shared with you, you never fail to listen attentively. I can't thank you enough but nevertheless I really appreciate every moment we shared.



Congratulations Ladies!!
We had made it through after 3 years of hard work, tears & perseverance
ALL the BEST on your next journey
=))





I can't deny, I am still hoping

Updated @ 10:49 PM

Nananananana..

Lari lari lari
aku lari tinggalkan semua ini
Untuk mencari-cari
cari ketenangan diri

Pergi pergi pergi
engkau pergi dari hidupku ini
Ku tak mahu mahu
engkau hadir dalam diri ini

Keluhan hatiku tak siapa yang tahu
Ku simpan semua sebak didada
Biarpun ku yang terluka
Pernahkah kau mengerti
caraku memujukmu
Pernahkah kau hargai
caraku mencintaimu

Lafasan kata dari bibir
Adakah ia dari hati
Mungkin kau tak fahami maksud yang tesembunyi
Titisan airmata dari pipi ke bumi
Pernahkah kau peduli betapa sedih diriku ini

Mengapa aku yang terluka
Aku yang merana
Aku yang menahan sisa baki cinta ini
Engkau yang meminta
Aku yang sengsara
Rimas rimas
Aku rimas

Tinggalkan seorang kecundang
Istana jiwaku goyang
Roboh dan tumbang
Sawanku lantang
Tidak berpantang
Letupnya siang siang
Bukannya alang kepalang
Datangnya perang

Dan bawaku ke jurang
Pulanglah sayang
Janji ku tatang
Ku hapuskan dalang
Dalangnya sayang
Sayangnya hilang
Hilanglah garang
Garangku terbang melayang

Terbongkangku terbang kau terhoyong-hayang
Tak pandang belakang
Terkankang gilaku tak diundang
Ku rapuh semua tak bertiang
Janjiku kini kan bertulang

Lari lari aku
Lari tinggalkan
Tinggalkan semua ini
Untuk mencari
Untuk mencari ketenangan
Aku pergi tinggalkan
Tinggalkan kau sendiri
Ku pergi... kini ku pergi
Tinggalkan mu sendiri



I am still Praying in Silent

Updated @ 2:13 PM

Get Back Up





"...there are sometimes in life when you fall down & you feel like you don't have the strength to get back up... it is not the end. It matters how you gonna finish. Are you gonna finish strong? And will you find that strength to get back up..."

THANK YOU Idah... for showing me this


If only you understand every actions I make...
I am badly searching for an answer

Updated @ 11:20 PM

Kadang-kadang Tuhan sembunyikan matahari, DIA datangkan petir dan kilat. Kita menangis dan tertanya- tanya ke mana hilangnya matahari, rupa-rupanya Tuhan hendak memberikan pelangi.



I will always remember this no matter what happened. Because up till today I believe everything happened for a reason. I believe ALLAH test me with something that I am capable of handling. When ALLAH leads me to it, HE puts me through it.

Insya-Allah


Praying in Silent

Updated @ 4:57 PM

anaanddia
(do check out the website)


I had a good time yesterday helping my cuzzen Nad to model for her shaylas(s) that she will be putting up on her online site pretty soon. While cuzzen snap the pic, her friend Liyana aka Loi (if I get it right) helped to dress me up in all the beautiful apparels. Shafiq & Acap also helped out to model the man's jubah & they look super smart in it.

on our way to Acap's crib


Let us go behind the scene =D








Thank you for making my day.
You guyz really crack me up. =))

I am wearing 2 of the shaylas out of 10 or is it more
From Left: Loi, myself & cuzzie Nad


p.s. I am still waiting for the pictures in Nad's camera
p.p.s. Its a must grab for all Muslim & Muslimah
=))


And every time my phone beep, I hope its you.

Updated @ 5:11 PM

It been so long since I update my blog proper because everytime I feel like blogging I just choose to keep my secrets/stories save which results to no updated entry. Life has been a roller-coaster ride... really. Plus with no job make it more difficult to handle everything.

But still I yet to THANK the lovely people around me who try their very BEST to keep me smiling. Give me the STRENGTH to live each day. Being a great SUPPORTER with words full of ENCOURAGEMENT.

To my 2 lovely MUMs (myMAMA & mamaSaminah) who keeps me sane... my Papa, Along & Adeq... Idah who is there from the start... Bestie Rad & Zila for never fail to meet up with me whenever I need a company... Djas, Aisya & Aifa for the laughter... my supper peepz (Sue, Yasin & Zila) for just being there... Nazurah, Sarah, Gaz, Cuzzie Nad & Cuzzie Tina for the strength & care... Jega, Hafiz, Firdhaus, Sham, Sha'ari, Rilwan for teaching me to smile from day to day... I hope I do not missed anyone... THANK YOU very nice for everything & I still could not thank enough. I really appreciate it.

(Idah said it sounds like Grammy Award. Hehe...)

Here I am still waiting until it fade. Please don't ask my why. Because some things just don't have a reason & I really have no answer to the question. You never fail to escape me & leave something in me. At the end of the day... To ALLAH I pray. To HIM, I seek peace. To HIM, I leave my fate/future. I am sure HE have much better plans install for me. Insya-Allah.
Ameen.

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

p.s. I LOVE YOU

Updated @ 4:10 PM